No xpectations

Wel..things haven't got any worse...and nor can it...she wants me to stop xpectin stuf from her...but then i never hav...this girl is awesome at gettin on my nerves...but i can't even scold her...how can i...its almost like a self inflicted wound....the more i miss her.... the more i think about her...didn't hav the gr8st conversation on earth with her yesterday...and so had a wet pillow as usual...she'd been outta town these 3 days...and these 3 days were obviously the longest of this summer...she keeps sayin that she will leave me some day...but then i'm a fella who lives more for today...i can't stop livin for today,worryin bout tomo...she stepped back into town only today...i don't hav ne plans of meetin her tomo...hopefully somethin pops up and gives me a chance to hav a peek at this goddess..next week this time..she'll b off...happily in a train thats gonna take her away from me...and along with all her other baggage....she's gonna b carryin my stupid heart too..i don't want her to go...but then fate always thinks otherwise...hope that i get a job somewhere in the vicinity of hyd...from where..even if not everyday...i can atleast get to see her a minute a week...that'll do for me...i'm happy bout one very small thing though...my cute little angel wil b here atleast tomo..i can msg her whenever i want...cal her a couple of times....and this is all that i've wanted..and i'm happy that i can hav this atleast tomo...even if not forever...she keeps sayin that my wife wud b very lucky...Can't i get lucky for a change...Can't i become the luckiest man on earth by gettin married to her....Can't i b with her all my life and c her being happy....wat more do i hav to do....go slit my throat or somethin...don't mind doin that if thats gonna make her realise how much she means to me..wanna spend as much time with her as possible before she leaves...but then she's very busy these days...she's got loads of other stuf to think and worry about...its not her mistake though....its jus the way things r pannin out....hope she understands someday...that this stupid guy called harish loved her real mad...and he treasures every moment she speaks to him...can't type nethin more....