Bad days these

The scenario has improved a bit....She has finally got over all the hocus i made...I still dunno wat puts her off and wat doesn't...Saw her yesterday..Went to her place to collect a book..Spoke for an hour almost..Wanted to settle the bald issue but she didn't wanna speak bout it...I don't know where I stand now..She speaks but never calls...She laughs,but never understands...She cares..But never cares enough...I want her to take complete control of me and order me to do things for her..She on the other hand treats me as jus one more guy she speaks to..I know its real greedy of me to xpect her to get possesive of me...But my stupid heart doesn't want any of it...Even though I try my best to be cheerful when i speak to her,it somehow still bites inside..Even if she never loves me,i atleast want her to realise....That there was this stupid guy called Harish...who was real mad bout this Doughnut...Real mad....