where am i headin???

Off late...i seriously dunno where i'm headin in life...Leave alone the light at the end of the tunnel..i can't c the tunnel itself....I wish there was jus this one day in life ,where i can jus take her apart from everythin else on earth..speak to her all day..and make her realise how much i'm sufferin..cuz as of now...she has no idea wat has happened to me...nor can i tel her...how can i..i'm hit with a "shut up" or "rubbish" the moment i speak somethin sensitive..i know she doesn't love me..maybe she thinks i'm not worth her..but am i not even worthy of tellin her how i feel about her...i might be just another friend to her...but i hope that she atleast realises how much she means to me..wud like to take her to Baskin Robbins once before she leaves..But then again..She's the one who calls the shots between us..and i hardly hav any decisions to make....i don't mind...in fact i'd love it if she makes all the decisions in my life...She need not love me..but atleast she can treat me like a person who loves her...

"To get married to somebody you love...U must be the luckiest man on earth..
And to love a girl with all that you have,and still not get her to understand..U must be Harish"